I was about to cry. Because I knew. I knew how extremely unsatisfied I'd be. How I would feel like I lost something. A part of me. It would be some kind of emptiness I can't describe. I knew that I'd cry & wouldn't know why. Until I'd realize that I did lose something when I closed that door. That I lost something when I turned away & didn't listen. I was about to cry because suddenly I knew. I may not know why. I may not know all the answers. I don't. And I'm really confused. But one thing that I'm not confused about, one thing that I'm so sure about & the one thing that I now know is - listen to your heart & follow God.