2016. What can I say about this year? There's so much I don't know where to begin.
It's been a year where I've learnt that as the earth breaks so the tiny flower can come out so does we - we break so we can grow. I've learnt that life does go on in the midst of it all. I've learnt that even if nothing goes right or the way you've been praying your heart out for God is still good. I've learnt that that is what faith is - believing in who He is, his character & nature even if you can't see the proof right there and now for what he has promised in the Bible. That faith is thanking Him even though it's dark. I've learnt that no matter what, God is always faithful. I thought I was doing fine in learning how to trust him but I've learnt that there's still so much to learn.
I've been broken like never before. I've been hurt. Scattered to pieces. Having trouble finding air. I've been hurting so bad this year. But I've been living so good as well. My joy has come from nothing and no one except from God alone. That pure & genuine happiness no human & no thing could give me but God.
'Conquer from within'. That was my quote. 'I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength' was my word. I can honestly say I've come to understand the depth of those words in a way I didn't expect. Through experience I've learnt to be content no matter the circumstances.
Little do we know in the beginning of every year. Little do we know what God wants to take us through. Little do we know. But we know who God is. And that is what we only can hold on to. That is what never changes. When we think He is telling us one thing but he's trying to teach us something else and nothing makes sense - HE MAKES SENSE.
He cries when we cry. He laughs when we laugh. He's hurting when we are hurting & he still carries us through.
" I now know, Lord, why you utter no answer. You are yourself the answer " - C.S. Lewis